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It would be so easy to wear my emotions on my sleeves, to wear my pain on my skin and display my feeling publicly for all to see like a newly painted canvass in public museum.
When I would think of their hands roaming my body, their words of hate and cruelty piercing my soul and their fist cracking my bones, I’d love it if I could just break down, tremble with tears and erupted into sobs.
Exactly like a …like a girl.
Don’t get me wrong ladies; you’re not all like this. I’ve seen you too when you’re corned, when you want only what you deserve…Justice. So you blame me for what another man did to you , besides, what one man does amplifies what we all do, does it not?
According to your standards it does.
So if I cry and scream, will you think differently of me? Will you think for just a second, that I’m human too? Will you finally believe me when I say that I’m not the man that hit you, not the man that raped your or beat you, not the man that ruined your life? Will you believe that I’ve been raped, been beaten, and been disgraced too?
But would you take it into consideration that unlike you, I’m a weakling for telling? Society hardens me; society covers my mouth with its symbolic tape. I’m a man, I protect. I can’t be hurt, I can only hurt. I can’t be weak; I can only make other’s weak.
So I’ll lock my emotions away, I’ll cover my canvass with white paint. I’ll recoil from touch, adapt to the harsh and unspoken rules of this society.  I’ll become angry when you suggest that I’m weak, when you suggest that something’s wrong with me.
And then I’ll think for just a second…if I’m exactly the same as the man who hurt you (according to your standards), then are you the same as the woman who hurt me? Are you the same woman who’s conditioning me to be a cold and heartless device, conditioning  me to convert my sadness and fear into anger? Are you the woman who chooses to ignore my pain and suffering, blandly saying that I CANNOT BE ABUSED?
Like you believe I am the man who hurt you, I’ll believe you are the woman who continues to do so to me; who continues to hurt me without speaking to me, without looking at me, by simply ignoring me. Your effect has been long adopted by the harsh leaders of society, a society that sweeps my abuse under the rug only to have yours amplified on billboards.
Where’s my shelter when I have nowhere to go, where’s my hotline when I’m hiding in my room, hiding from my abusive spouse, where do I stay when the world is completely against me? I don’t know and frankly, I suppose according to you, I shouldn’t care.
So I’ll lock my pain away, become the monster that you fear.
I’ll be a man.
For those in I'mreallyNOTokay, read this: 

I entered this earlier for a kinda spoken word thingy, not meant to offend anyone in this group, but i'm not changing the title. It's a different perspective on things, it contains rape and abuse, so if that stuff makes you sick, I advise you to turn away. It goes well with this group, so for those of you who need it, i've decied to post it. 
o the Feminist: The Battered man
Firstly, let me just say this is too the extreme feminist, you know who you are. And I’m not saying that women aren’t abused because I know that we are, but there are just as many men who are battered and abused as well. Unfortunately, society has conditioned a man to hide their emotions inside, lock away their pain and eventually, it becomes something they can’t handle. Abuse regarding both genders is not a laughing matter, but more importantly, locking away such emotions lead to no good.
So, out of my anger regarding equality (I’ve been involved in the movement), I’ve decided to write a short story.

It's just a free verse, and when my 24 hrs are up, i'm putting this in a group. I didn't feel like writing those long statics things because face it, many of them are just made up. So, from my heart, I wrote this, I put myself in someone else's shoes (which I do a lot), so I hope this turned out okay.

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ColonelBSacquet Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2014
Beaten by his spouse ? Wow. That doesn't get aired very often.

"So I’ll lock my pain away, become the monster that you fear.
I’ll be a man."

Now, now ... let us not be extreme. A man can be, well, a man, without having to completely lock his emotions away.
Aren't there some millions of examples of that ?
magdalenacaracol Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2014
YES. you should read my poem :)
Winter-Fallspring Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
very well expressed. :)

ps i know how much keeping everything locked inside can mess with you xD
lidsworth Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
tsubaki-nanaseR08 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013   Artist
all of this is true. however, both  genders can be considered abusive.  it might not always seem like that but,  both men and women can be abusive simply because they don't know how to coexist nor let go of the past--along with their preconceptions and habits. 
lidsworth Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
That's why I wrote this.
tsubaki-nanaseR08 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013   Artist
cool! to be honest wit you, i don't consider myself an extreme feminist. Rather, i think of myself as someone who believes that coexistence without hidden expectations from both sexes can
be a wonderful thing. Too bad nobody see it that way. 
SolidMars Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there Wave 
Your wonderful work has been featured here Weekly Feature
Happy holidays :iconbackhug: :heart:
lidsworth Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks, happy holidays to you too!
SolidMars Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're welcome :huggle:
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